This weight loss journey is slapping me around like a
punching bag and I am my own worst enemy. I was only going to blog if there was
something good to share but that was short lived because the good news stop
coming. No, I did not give up nor did I throw in the towel; but I am going to
be completely honest with anyone who reads my blog. This is not a merry go
round this weight loss journey is like a see saw.
At times, it felt like I was going round and round not so,
not so, I am going up two pounds down three pounds. Up four pounds, down one
pound and so forth and so on. My goal dress well hell I am ready to return that
back to the store or give that away completely , it’s so frustrating knowing deep down in the core of my heart I
really want this weight to come off and realizing it’s not going nowhere in
fact its seems like I am packing on the pounds.
In the weeks prior to this blog, I went on a protein diet,
no carbs for three days. Guess who was clogged and uncomfortable. Then I tried
eating all carbs and no protein well let me just tell you I felt like a junkie
in a candy store, I went to the market and purchased big bags of cheese curls,
potato chips and pretzels and this was what I feasted on instead of protein. I
swelled up so big from the sodium and my pressure was so high that I was in bed
for a couple of days and very remorseful. My attempts did not stop there I
figured why not just eat right six times a day.
Did that plan for a while, rewarded myself by getting on the
scale, and guess what I lost nothing, nil, zip, zilch, naught, zero…. Then when
I throw a little weight training and exercise in there the scale went up and
down, up and down. Then I tried to figure out what I did to get it down and I
went back up again…
This is silly but I thought if I could just get out of the
250’s I would be inspired to do more. My body seems like it is just giving up
the fight without my permission. If you have any ideas on how I can kiss the
250’s goodbye let me know.
P.S. I remove all my
pictures because it saddened me to see that I was once 199lbs and now I am
258lbs. Just sad….
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