The Scale Don't Lie!

 A surprise weigh-in  and another gain no not one or two but 10 lbs, it happen while showing a friend how to use the digital scale that is often use at work. Me stepping on the scale left me in a state of shock. I'm on the scale and the drama queen that lives inside of me was scared to death. Nevertheless, six whole minutes later and  gasping for air it read 248lbs no freaking way after three attempts to get a better reading and finally coming to grips with the fact that the scale don't lie it read the same thing over and over again.

My friend said take off two pounds for shoes great idea. So  that was 2lbs so lets see now we are at  246lbs.  What else can go? The clothes was also subtracted so the final tally is 243 lbs.

With nothing else to subtract I knew that the rest of the weight was all of my problems, all my stress, another funeral this year. Even my surgery from last year December 2009 never really losing that weight either flat on my back for two months and not missing one meal during the entire time.

Sadly, food can't talk back or alert me that it is to fattening so again like all the times before I've allowed myself to befriend my enemy and regress back into my addiction. After talking with my friend who said that she too fallen victim to the same friendship and we should not get depressed about it instead do something about it. Taking that slow walk back to my desk I thought do what giving up again was the first thought trying again was the last. So much for my inspirational picture...... then I had a melt down right at my desk... For two hours, twenty minutes, and 15 seconds.