I've been battling with my weight for years and years and years. I've lost weight, gained it back, made *excuses* for myself. So many excuses that recently, I got so fed up with me that I stop blogging.*Bad mistake* because blogging is my way to let it all out, and instead I ate. When did all this start I needed to know. When did food become my addiction?
I had to give this some thought because when I was grade school, I was as skinny as a rail. In junior high the same, high school I just had *hips* still a small frame and my weight stayed under 150lbs and I did not have a love affair with food. But as a grown woman I am suffering silently with an addiction that is tearing me apart my soul and spirit is broken daily. Because I don't understand and cannot pin point the date or day this addiction took control of me.
It's not my mother's fault but she never told me to watch my weight. They all (my siblings, aunts’, uncles) treated me as though Kimmey will always be skinny not so fast I will tell everyone now. *Not so fast* look at me now, I am not skinny and I don't remember what it is like to be skinny. I fight like heck to be healthy and it seems like the fight of my life. I've gone over and over and over this in my mind when and how do I get cured. No I am not looking for a quick fix but I need to find a balance. Anyone that has ever had this addiction understands my fight it's every hour, every minute and every second of every day. Just needed to write........
I had to give this some thought because when I was grade school, I was as skinny as a rail. In junior high the same, high school I just had *hips* still a small frame and my weight stayed under 150lbs and I did not have a love affair with food. But as a grown woman I am suffering silently with an addiction that is tearing me apart my soul and spirit is broken daily. Because I don't understand and cannot pin point the date or day this addiction took control of me.
It's not my mother's fault but she never told me to watch my weight. They all (my siblings, aunts’, uncles) treated me as though Kimmey will always be skinny not so fast I will tell everyone now. *Not so fast* look at me now, I am not skinny and I don't remember what it is like to be skinny. I fight like heck to be healthy and it seems like the fight of my life. I've gone over and over and over this in my mind when and how do I get cured. No I am not looking for a quick fix but I need to find a balance. Anyone that has ever had this addiction understands my fight it's every hour, every minute and every second of every day. Just needed to write........
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Just checking in....
It does seem like it's every moment of every day!
At least in the blogs, we can find support!
My word verification is "uncease"!!!!
Thank you Anne you seem to always be there to give me that encouraging word or lift, when I need it Thank you! If I never askd I am sorry but how is your weight loss coming hav you arrived and just stable in your weight.
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