Re : Online Dairy

I left everyone hanging regarding my blood pressure and the status on the big (D) you know diabetes. Well  I am back and with some updates my blood pressure has gone down. That's good news I suppose and the status on the diabetes well it was a scare but that is okay too. Now we have the weight that is what caused all the scares in the first place right .


That is a very touchy subject with me lately but I am facing it head on.  Being obese hinders me from doing  a lot of things. But  my will and determination keeps me from giving up that is why I fight so hard  But the fight to stay clean is my struggle food is not the enemy I am the abuser.  Sometimes I have complete control and other times I find myself totally out of control.

I'm not proud of my actions and sometimes I am ashamed of how much food I intake in one meal. People say to me all the time it is easy just eat in moderation and do some exercise. And that is all well and good I been there and done that not once, not twice, not three times or four times oh I've been there more than I can count. On the days when I am not hungry I can't explain it. I can go 24hours to 36 hours without feeling any hunger pains. And on the flip side sometimes I get so hungry I feel like I am going to pass out if I don't eat.

So as my struggle continues I will keep you posted and updated on my accomplishments and my downfalls. Both are important if you have no struggles your victories are in Vain!!!