New Start

You will see my picture on each post because that is my motivation. I love my smile,and everything about the picture. Even the fat that swings from my arms you can't see that because it is a still frame. But I pledge allegiance to those arms, everyday. With the hope that one day they will miraculously get smaller, who the hell am I kidding. They will not get smaller or tone up on their own as with anything else they need work and in order to see a difference or change I must be willing to put in that work.

When I first gain a few pounds, I just knew for sure that I was still in control. Slowly but surely I found myself on an emotional roll a coaster. A seesaw if you will, up, down,up,down. Finally, a crisis came into my life and it knocked me the hell down and I stayed down. After a year of self pity and mourning the lost of a love one I've decided to change.

Change is coming with a price I have a slow metabolism, not as active as I would like to be, and my moral is depleted. But even with all those strikes against my fresh start I will press on.