Re : Let's Play Catch Up

Last time I blogged I was headed to (WW) aka Weight Watchers what does that mean really they will watch what I eat or watch my weight. In all reality it's really up to me to show up to be accountable right. They are counting on the food addict to show up act clean and get help well isn't that alot to ask out of me.  So since I knew there was an  upcoming meeting where you stand on the scale and your weight  is broadcast for other members to hear the very day of the meeting I had a meltdown right on the entry steps.

For a few seconds I blanked out; do I, should I, what am I thinking, am I really ready. After those few minutes of panic slowly I walked up the stairs into the meeting. There was women of all sizes and shapes there I was not alone. However, it was unclear to me if everyone was a food addict like me. So I made my way through the crowd and found a  little corner to sit not to be noticed.  Until they said fill in these papers and  come to get weighed in I wanted to run for the door.

But instead I managed to fill in the papers and do what was required of me sadly I felt a great responsibility because women were asking where are you going? Did you just start ? Boy, oohh boy I was not ready  for all this friendly chatter.  And to top it off  the women that runs this office said,  you know this is not like weight watchers years ago when you only paid $5 dollars no, no,  this is a sign up mean business and pay $15 dollars a week and if you don't show up then it adds up every week.

 So you miss a week it is $ 30.00 biweekly.  OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DID I SIGN UP FOR and now that I am signed up can I afford to miss a week. Choices, choices, choices enough to bring on sobriety in time of course. Weight on 1-15-2011 a whopping 253.lbs