Fresh Start - Say it Ain't So

The New Narcotic - not the kind of drug you put into your arm and not the kind you smoke out of a pipe. This  narcotic is addictive and powerful and kills. People have gone into recovery many times and people have tried many things but this drug is so enticing that it affects 1 out of 4 in every city, state and country. People claim that have the solution or the answer and will go to great lengths to get the cure. But to be honest with you their is no cure no one has the answer and no sit down meeting will do.

Are you wondering what kind of drug is this, that kills and is so powerful and addictive, well wonder no more let me take you out of your misery of guessing. I was watching a television show and they called "Food" the new "Narcotic".

They said that it is so addictive that by any means necessary we will eat even if it kills us. Say it ain't so, this drug will give you diabetics, hypertension and high cholesterol.This drug will make you drool at a bakery, take all your money and stop you in your tracks. This drug will have you paying out money you don't have, it affects your self-esteem, body image, mental & physical state of mind say it ain't so.

How far will you go or have gone to lose weight to only gain it again. Ask yourself this question, how much has this cost you. I challenge every blogger out there to add up the amount of money that has been or is expected to be spent to lost weight. If you had to be honest to yourself and look yourself in the mirror today can you honestly say your are not addicted and you are not an enabler. If your answers is no you are not addicted, great but beware food sneaks up on you with its smells and its colors and is forms like pizza, bread, cinnamon rolls, cheese steaks, french fries.

It took alot of soul searching but I have come to grips with my food addiction. I am a compulsive, emotional eater. I can write and honestly say that food is my narcotic of choice and is as deadly as crack cocaine. I don't diet, I live in recovery everyday it is a new way of life.

 This addiction is bigger then me and sometimes I can't fight off the urge but I resist with all the strength I have because  one slip up will send me back down the road of destruction. Every time I regress it becomes harder and harder to start over. Someone said to me, Kim you will never lose that weight again, just admit you are suppose to be big and deal with it. I thought  about what she said, I did not get angry I got determine to stay clean.  I was not born to die of obesity and neither were you.

The first sign of recovery is admitting you have a problem.